i somehow have managed to not come on here for a month. my life has a dull way of sucking me into it, and it takes me weeks to step out of myself and realize how much time has passed. in that same sense, i do my daily tasks with little regard to the big picture. i just try to make it through the present day. that makes it harder to decide if what i'm pursuing in school is what i really want to do. i wish i could write. i wish i were artistic. i feel like i should be doing something along either of those two lines. is the medical field REALLY for me? i'll be "guaranteed" a job, so that's basically it. psychology interests me, but what the heck can you do with an associate's degree in psychology? i don't know what i want to do, but my day-to-day life consumes me in a way that i don't focus on bigger things. i'm so redundant right now and i don't even care. bleh!